So I was pregnant... I had adjusted my matrix, but I now had letterhead because I had clients, yes clients. In addition to still being in the corporate world, I mean I had good benefits, I was on the management track, I now a small event business. I would plan the party, do the food, set up the food table and create the cake. One small wrinkle-- being pregnant. I was so sick my first 12 weeks-- I mean sick we should have purchased stock in Schwepps. But I kept going. I could do it. I am married to an amazing husband who watched me try and do it all. So at five months pregnant I took what would be my last official job before becoming a mom-- a baby shower. Simple, quiche, salad and a cake. Oh, what to do. Pink and green for a little girl, polka dots went with the theme. Looking back this is so boring and uninspired. The flavor was even boring-- they wanted chocolate, just plain chocolate. But that is what you are going to turn out when you use a template and your life is run by a matrix.
The one thing I wasn't counting on the hormones. I was still using my templates to create and design the cake so now my usual anal compulsiveness was mixed in with raging hormones and my poor husband did not dare cross the kitchen threshold. But he smiled and offered to help where he could. I delivered the cake and finished the shower-- many of the women at the shower looked at me in what I thought was amazement, as I proudly told them that I did this in addition to my full time corporate job, being happily married and pregnant, but it was really, you have know idea what you are getting into and try and keep this up. They were already moms. It was the secret mom code look. I now know the look. I have shared it with my own mom as we laugh about experiences of the uninitiated. That was first major turning point for me a simple polka dot at a baby shower. I had to let go of a dream--I couldn't do it all. That was my last full scale event for about two years. I lost myself in a sea of polka dots.
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